Isn’t it ironic that we put our lives on hold when we are trying to bring new life in? it seems the right thing at the time – “no skiing vacation as this might be the month”, no new clothes as we might need pregnancy clothes in a few months, no changing careers as we need this insurance for the delivery…on and on….so many choices based on ‘what if?’.
I was a master at this for many years – putting all on hold in order to ‘manage’ my energy towards my fertility attempts. So many plans put on hold – to a point of forgetting them. And as the tunnel vision became tighter and tighter around the image of what I didn’t have (the baby), the less I would see what I did have – a life. A marriage, a home, family, friends, work, a beloved pet. Vacations became places to escape to mourn rather than places to discover and enjoy.
I was unable to live or even conceive of living in the dichotomy of having a joyful life AND being sad that the baby was not yet here. The fear of never having a baby was too great.
And all of these ‘life holds’ are exactly the opposite energy that we actually need to bring into play! Life begets life! Putting our lives on hold only creates stagnancy where we need movement, lost opportunities where we need options and regret where we need hope.
Many women who have attended our retreats have discovered that they have put their lives on hold without consciously doing so. It was simply a natural action to take to protect their fertility efforts. Rediscovering lost dreams and set aside passions during their time at retreat awakened those desires and brought back a surge of zest for life. For life as it is now – to be lived today.
And that energy – that passion – that LIVING – is what opens up our souls to the soul waiting to come to us….