Every time the longing for a child surfaced in me, it brought forth a feeling of joy and passion, like a secret treasure of hope emerging from the depths of my heart. Yet, it was so easy to lose the heart-felt joy and sense of “rightness” when the journey didn’t seem to be taking me where I wanted it to. Month after month of negative pregnancy tests, anovulatory cycles, and the frustrating symptoms of hormonal imbalance turned the joy into sorrow, and rightness into downright anger. My mind led the desperate search for answers as I was brought deeper and deeper into the realm of “It’s not f*(%@ working!” As my mind remained in control, the more my emotions vacillated between hope and despair. If I couldn’t figure it out, maybe the doctors could. They couldn’t – they could only offer intervention. What?! You can’t tell me what’s wrong, but you can offer me a drug anyway? That makes no sense!
It wasn’t until I was brought into a state of surrender that my mind gave up and my heart started to lead the way; first back to me. Then to a child.
The journey toward parenthood can and should be a pathway of love and joy, free of fear or ambition. Ask yourself, right now, before you start thinking: Is there enough joy in your life? This may require deep and scrutinizing self-honesty. And to answer this question truthfully, you cannot lay the burden or your happiness on whether or not you get pregnant. Ask your question of your heart, not your mind. With or without a child, right now, is there enough joy in your life? Yes or no?
If the answer is yes, congratulations. You are on the right path. If, however, the answer is no, which I suspect for most of you it is, ask yourself what brings you joy?
This is not a selfish question; for when your heart is filled with joy, it opens, and its energy flows outward, spreading love and joy throughout your life. Harmony returns, and balance is restored, chemically and hormonally.
When you have a decision to make, ask yourself, “Does this direction/path strengthen my heart?” And intuitively attend to the embodied feeling of presence in your own heart. There is an unmistakeable sense of rightness that comes from following the current of truth that flows through your heart.
If the answer comes with justification, more questions, ifs ands or buts, it is coming from your head. If the answer has a heart-felt feeling of rightness, it means yes. If the embodied feeling is closed off and contracted, the answer is no. It is that simple. The journey toward more peace, joy, and love is always a path of heart. If you want control and assurances, this path isn’t for you. But if you want to live a miraculous life of untold bounty, you may be asked to sacrifice control for moving into the unknown. Only then can you experience the incalculable riches that life has in store for you.
Looking forward to connecting with you all on the 27th,
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